My Continuous New Year's "Resolutions"

By: Lauren Montoya

When a new year begins, I always say, “I have 365 days to fulfill this goal of mine. I have plenty of time!” Then, before i fully comprehend what I need to do to accomplish it, it’s already November or December. Time is definitely something that shouldn’t be underestimated, under any circumstances. Like, for instance, time is quite essential in school; when I think that i can wait until two days before the due date and I’ll be perfectly fine, and almost every time I’ve said that to myself, the exact opposite occurs, The habit of procrastination is something I attempt to break every new year, whether it be academically or just in general, so that I’m not always so stressed, even though I decide to voluntarily do so because of my laziness. Ultimately, I just end up creating excuses for not having “enough time” for anything, which makes my resolution even further away for me to reach. But who could blame me? I mean, we live in probably the most distracted generation of all, with various forms of modern technology that offers us hilarious, yet useless things that we can live without, but honestly, we really can’t.

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I’m a motivated person, however, I’m not great at utilizing my time efficiently. To be more specific, I do have goals that I have worked greatly towards with a passionate drive, yet I always find a way to not complete two or three of those goals, because I would think that there’s time to do it all later. Additionally, there’s also social media, Netflix, Hulu, and the excuse of me saying, “I need to catch up on this show and I still haven’t watched this movie yet,” actually thinking that it’s such a necessity for me to have an all day binge of indulging myself with reruns of “The Office” and “Parks and Recreation.” I really dislike when I do this, because although I gibe myself a temporary outlet of happiness, I end up struggling to catch up with time itself with its undeniable quickness. Aside from distractions and excuses, I believe that I haven’t met my resolution yet, because I also worry a lot about everything, consistently trying to plan for what is to come in the future for myself, rather than focusing on what is currently taking place in my life now.I’ve always been a person who tends to look towards the future with big and bright ideas, but while I’m daydreaming of what life is like beyond and after high school, time slips from my fingers once again, and procrastination is at its finest, with me panicking even more about the overwhelming amount of responsibilities that had accumulated, like I had forgotten that I’m still in high school. I personally think that this motivation and passion I have for my future is both a blessing and negative, in that I’m more hopeful for what is to come, but not entirely concentrated on the present that will eventually take me to that desired outcome of the future dream and wish about that day.

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The first step I should take towards meeting any goal or resolution is to stop making so many meaningless excuses that ultimately don’t contribute anything, even including listening to my favorite music albums or laughing non-stop at my most beloved television shows. I do have enough time, I just don’t initially see it, because I choose not to pay attention the moment I’m given a chance to use it wisely. In addition, I believe it’s also better for me to start the year off with a clear, fresh mind and leaving the negative occurrences that happened in my life the previous year behind, in order to build myself up higher from there, without dwelling on past events that might discourage me from progressing forward. Though this is easy for me to say now, the true dedication comes when I actually do something about my goal, for actions do really speak louder than words. I can worry, but why do that when time is passing by so quickly? Procrastination is a major habit of many, and I’ve been involved with it numerous times and have promised myself to not do it again on multiple occasions in previous years, but it’s something I haven’t conquered (yet!). In all honesty, I believe I haven’t met this resolution, because I haven’t given myself the chance to be confident enough to just do something, without worrying about what might or could happen; instead, the present should be embraced, for it leads towards the future. I won’t say that I’ll be perfect one day when I “permanently” stop procrastinating, but I know that I will grow from what I do, and not just from my words, which is the most important aspect about improving and becoming closer to my resolution.

Sydney Ho